I’m 61, married and have a 38 year old son, 2 grandchildren and a cat. I’m an actor, director, producer and writer. I’m an active gym goer, to the point I’m obsessed with the gym. Pre-vaccine I was a 7hr night sleeper, and if I wasn’t at the gym, I was either at an acting gig, having family time or out doing motocross in the weekends. Other than being on an Hormone Replacement due to deficiencies, I had no pre-existing conditions and had only ever been to the hospital for broken bones.
I was weighing up the odds regarding the vaccine. I knew that 98.4% of people survived Covid and that 76% of those who died had 4 or more comorbidities and were over 80 years old – this was a huge decider in me taking the risk with Covid and not getting the vaccine. I was in a TV series ‘Spartacus’ about 10 years ago and had two related conventions scheduled overseas (USA and Paris), so I bit the bullet and had the jab so I could travel to the conventions.
My first Pfizer covid vaccine on the 10th of August 2021 was a breeze with no side effects, but within 12 hours of the second Pfizer covid vaccine on the 16th of September 2021, I developed chronic fatigue and became mostly bed ridden for about 6 weeks. Early on, my wife asked me to go for a walk with her. I couldn’t even walk up the driveway without stopping to catch my breath, I had heart palpitations, breathlessness and thought I was having a heart attack. My lower legs filled up with fluid and my socks acted like a dam with swelling coming over the top of them. I had extreme headaches (which I still have every so often) and my back, and back of my arms felt like they had fire ants crawling all over them – anything against my skin was annoyingly painful. My gag reflex also blocked which felt like I had a balloon sitting right under my oesophagus. I couldn’t burp, release air or find any relief, I was in agony. The symptoms had all hit me in one big wallop. I also developed a tremor/twitch in my left thumb (I had both vaccinations in my left arm), which I thought was from an old motocross accident. The twitch had been the least of my worries with everything else I was experiencing, until the tremor progressed through my whole arm to my shoulder and got so bad that I was unable to ignore it. I didn’t connect any of my symptoms to the vaccine at this point.
I called the doctor and told him what was going on for me and said I wasn’t going to go to hospital – It was just before we had the lockdown and I didn’t feel like I was dying or that it was an emergency. Whatever this was, I was prepared to ride it out. He organised a referral to a cardiologist. It wasn’t until December 2021 (3 months later) that I had the appointment. After taking my blood pressure and having an ECG, he told me that I could go home, but highly recommended that I do not. He advised me to go with the nurse and I’d be admitted to a ward.
I was in hospital for a week. I had an angiogram, cardiac ultrasound and ECG’s among other tests. My heart functionality came back at 92% – 55-70% is considered normal for a guy my age. I’d suspected I had Myocarditis as the symptoms aligned, but was diagnosed cardiomyopathy (thickening of the left ventricle), this is an injury that can specifically happen to weight trainers. It seemed that because they knew I did weight training and was on HRT, they just attributed my symptoms to this diagnosis. I believe they were in denial did not want to associate this to the vaccine at all. After I was discharged, I wrote a post on my social media about my symptoms and asking if anyone else had these symptoms after their vaccine and had many responses. I then got onto Dr. Robert Malone and Dr. Peter McCulloch and others who were being silenced, which turned me to listen to what they had to say even more.
I’ve had recurrent kidney infections, with the first occurring in February 2022 where I couldn’t pee and was just passing blood, and also had blood in my ejaculate. Antibiotics worked to clear the first one, but on the second one, I was admitted to hospital for kidney failure and given a CAT scan where they found a mass in my bowel. This resulted in a colonoscopy to investigate further. The confirmed the mass to be a Polyp, which they removed, then confirmed was clear of any cancer. The last infection I had was about 5 weeks ago, I have so many inflammations showing up in my testing that they can’t determine where the inflammation is coming from.
I had Covid about 12 months ago, it was like a mild cold and lasted for a day. I took Ivermectin to knock it on the head but then couldn’t really determine whether that had helped or not as I had nothing to compare it to.
When the tremors in my arm worsened, I was referred to a Neurologist who told me I had Parkinsons Disease. I didn’t accept this diagnosis as we have no history of Neurological disease in our family. After thinking back to when the symptoms first started in in my thumb, it was just after the vaccine. I believe they’re connected. I was prescribed a Parkinsons drug called Sinemet and initially put on a lower dose with a progressive plan to increase from ½ a tablet to 3 tablets per day.
By the 27th of October 2022, I’d been on Sinemet for about 8 weeks and had progressed to the full dose. I had become disassociated, depressed and was having hallucinations. On this particular day I felt all this emotion and left work early to go home. When I walked in the house I walked past my wife I said to her “I can’t speak to you right now, I’m going to go upstairs and sleep off this mood”. I remember feeling dazed, confused, angry and lost. I took a Sinemet and two sleeping tablets. I have NO memory at all of what happened next.
My wife had gone to work for four hours then came back to find me in the bottom of the shower, almost blue and barely breathing. I had taken every sleeping tablet in the house and had strung up the cord of my bathrobe in my wardrobe to try and hang myself. I must have tried a few times as I had ligature marks around my neck. I’m lucky I was a shit boy scout with knots. It took 4 paramedics to get me out of the house as I was out to it. I woke up in the hospital the next morning about 3am. They wouldn’t release me until I was cleared by the mental health unit. I’d never had suicidal thoughts before or a history of mental illness. I had everything in front of me, and I love my wife; we’ve been together 27 years and we get stronger each day. One of the staff members in the mental health unit mentioned they’d known this type of thing to occur with other people as a side effect of Sinemet. After I was told this, I looked up this drug and the side effects online. Every single page had ‘Warning: Hallucinations, depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts’. The doctor who prescribed me this drug, had not disclosed any of its side effects.
I went off it cold turkey as soon as I knew this information. The depressive state lifted straight away, but I’m left with anxiety attacks, which are happening less frequently over time. It’s taken a long while for my body to return to its chemical balance. Emotions trigger me – I can be laughing with a movie one minute and crying the next and if my adrenal system gets stimulated, my arm starts flapping like a fish. After being labelled with Parkinsons and prescribed medication without disclosure of any of the side effects, I wrote an email giving all the links to the information about them and sent it to the Neurologist I’d seen in hospital. Within 10 minutes he was on the phone to me, apologising for an hour.
The trauma of knowing I almost killed myself and what I put my wife through, with NO recollection at all gives me anxiety. I am seeing a psychologist and working through this currently. Ever since the suicide attempt, I keep thinking ‘What’s next?!’. I still worry that this is not over, but I refuse to let it define me.
I’ve been in and out of hospital several times trying to get answers and help with my symptoms, and still have no accurate diagnosis. I finally got an appointment for a Cardiac MRI in January 2023 that I’d waited over a year for. My tremors were so bad that they couldn’t get an image – they tried and tried. When I was coming out of the machine, I had an anxiety attack coming on and the lady with me asked if it was Parkinson’s. I told her that whatever it was, had started after having the Pfizer vaccine. I ended up telling her everything that happened, and had said, “Sometimes I doubt myself and wonder if I’m going crazy”. She said to me “You’re not going crazy – there are hundreds like you coming through the door”. I went into the waiting room where my wife was waiting for me and I just fell apart, they had to almost carry me out of the hospital. After this my doctor submitted an ACC claim for vaccine injury listing all my symptoms (a CARM adverse event report has also been lodged), however ACC declined the claim. They wanted to see results of a cardiac MRI, but then declined the request for me having it done under sedation saying that I wouldn’t be able to breathe under instruction in the procedure. The last cardiologist I saw had come across quite angry. I thought he was angry at me, but then he quietly said “The system is f**ked”.
My life consists of the gym in the morning, home for a sleep, then work, eat and sleep again – with not much in-between. It’s been like this most of the time since the vaccine. My current symptoms are: Chronic fatigue (not as bad as the beginning, but I’m still sleeping 12-14 hours a day), tremors, anxiety, recurrent kidney infections, blood in my ejaculate, my heart having intermittent attacks that feel like sharp cramps. I have brain fog and keep dropping words and can’t remember what things are and I’m also currently going through a process with my doctor to investigate the cause of my PSA (Prostate Specific Antigen) levels being up from 1-2, to 8.5.
I’m seeing a Naturopath and take a long list of supplements, and most recently Nattokinase, which made a noticeable difference within 3 days of taking it when I’d had the last kidney infection. I’ve just finished one week of a 10 week course of IV ozone therapy and my energy levels feel up, but it’s hard to judge – It’s early days but I’m hopeful. I’ll be trying HOCATT (Hyperthermic Ozone and Carbonic Acid Transdermal Therapy) in Mid-April too.
I had an interview with Counterspin media late last year and within four days of the interview, I lost my agent. I’d just done work with them, so getting work wasn’t an issue. I can’t confirm if I was taken off their books due to this interview, but the timing is suspect – If it was the case, I’m glad they’re gone. I also did an interview with Liz Gunn shortly after.
From 12 hours after my second Pfizer vaccine, this is what happened to me. This is fact. My doctor has mentioned the possibility that if it can be proven that the spike protein is still moving around my body or I have scar tissue from it in my organs, it’s evidence that it’s from the vaccine. The testing to find this out has been refused in NZ, so I may have to go overseas somewhere to have it done. I have written my will, and in it have stipulated that if I pass away, I want specific testing to be done to investigate whether the spike protein in my organs, or I have scar tissue from it on my organs. I have no interest in receiving money for what’s happened to me, but am interested in a Class-Action lawsuit. I believe that Jacinda should be made accountable for her role in this.